A few years ago, in meditation, I received the message that it was time to Trust and to Surrender. As a childhood abuse and trauma survivor, I have developed so many strategies to keep going, keep functioning, keep trying. I never let them see me hurting. I stay hyper-vigilant at all times. I have developed so many self-protective habits that the idea of surrendering enough to let go, and trusting that everything would be okay, is a terrifying prospect.
This winter I was challenged to step out of fear and into JOY in some wild new ways. I needed to get off the sidelines, stop hiding behind my limiting beliefs, and just take the leap. Literally. I thought I had faced so many of my biggest fears, and then they grew bigger, just like my babies!
When I finally found the courage and started speaking my truth, owning my story, and feeling like I deserved to be here, the physical pains started to lessen. As I learned to feel like I had some worth and I let some joy in, the blocks started to shift and move and I let some energy flow to that part of my body that was so wounded. I sent love to the little girl that was hurt and told her that it wasn’t her fault.
Are you ready to surrender the things in your life that cause you pain? Can you let go? It’s easier said than done. I find that trust and surrender are the hardest stage of the healing process. I feel like when people see me at this stage, they don’t understand how many steps I … Continue reading Join The Movement
“Magdalena Moments” are what I call those times when I feel myself taking steps towards my future self. They are the times when I feel like I can get a glimpse of my true self. Last night I was soaking in my new bathtub and soaking in the loveliness of the moment. I was sending … Continue reading Manifesting Magical Moments